the toaster showed me who was boss

i got cut off this morning by a scion.



i had a good chuckle though when i read it's bumper sticker.



ha ha, it's so true! i got beat by a toaster :(

byebye BofA

i closed my bank of america account today, and transfered all the funds into our first republic shared account.
it felt weird to just NOT use bank of america anymore, and bam.... be DONE. just like that, my 8 year relationship is done.
it seems silly, but it felt like a Big moment. i just shredded my old atm card. i opened the account in 1999 when i first moved here with sam.
it is a new day.

"the feeling good handbook"

is it possible for me to find a book written by this guy helpful??

i auditioned for a musical and i was terrible**

Maggie,

Thank you for auditioning for Insignificant Others. We were impressed by the level of talent we saw in our first round of auditions. Unfortunately, we've had to make some tough choices, and we won't be offering you a spot at callbacks next Monday.

Best of luck to you in your theatrical endeavors, and we hope you can catch the show this summer.

Regards,

Jay Kuo, Producer
George Quick, Director



**this makes me majorly rethink singing at my wedding

chicago and love

so. we had a great time in chicago. i love it. it feels old and brick and permanent. i saw some college buddies, and they are successful which was hard given the way i've been feeling about dance. but it was great to see them. i also got to meet more of tom's family, and they are all just so sweet.



i also got my favorite valentine EVER last night from tom. there's a program where you make a pattern from 3d data....very cool. so he printed a pattern to make a 3d heart, and the text said "you'll always have my heart...in a box"
very sweet... and funny throwback to the great JT SNL skit (dick in a box)



pics here

the Spanish learns whereas he exercises satisfies yes!

get in shape.
learn a new language.
both.

i stole this from evelina...

my friend axel

has a new "inspiration feed" (what does that mean, exactly?) and i gotta say it is quite interesting.
check it out.

i especially enjoyed this.
and this.
and this.

multiple choice

a. noah's ark, 2 by 2 theme:



b. "hearts on fire":



c.

i'm not here, to start no trouble

i'm just here to do the superbowl shuffle!

thanks anj!

in more humorous news....

rachel just took a big ole chomp into my right boob. owie!!


(maybe i shouldn't be breast-feeding. KIDDING)

here's what is holding me back....

it's desperately wanting to not be a failure at dance. if i decide to "be" something else, suddenly i'm not a dancer, and i have failed. and that feels unbearable. it is silly. and i am so damn stubborn about it. i envy my former schoolmates who are on broadway or in companies....anyone who is dancing as their main profession. even though i'm not dancing right now, i can still say that i am a dancer...basically because i'm not really anything else. i don't identify with being a nanny, that's for sure. sigh. i know it is possible to "be" something else, and still dance....but it still looks the same in my eyes; for me. and honestly, i will never be what i envy. and the struggle totally isn't worth it.
when i am finally ready to move on, it will probably be in this direction....