career blahs

yesterday was hard. in yoga, i felt weak, and like i couldn't do half the poses i usually can....that started a downward spiral and my inner critic had a hayday (heyday??) anyway, i've been thinking about dance and how i make my living and how i'm not satisfied with my relationship to either of these things. over the weekend, i was in the woodlands, texas with tom and his family. it was a very nice time, but my almost-sister-in-law-in-law asked me about my job, and what i wanted to be doing, and i got really frustrated with myself that i didn't have an answer. another thing highlighted was my fear that i won't be a good mom. a.s.i.l.i.l. is an amazing mom, completely putting her children first. what if i am too selfish? ( i initially typed "too elfish".....what if i'm too elfish?!? what if i puncture my child with my pointy ears?!?!)